Remembrance...

you fool, you old fool...you sit on your chair all alone, having a drag and drinking a beer....you feel alone but you are too afraid to admitt it. You lost everything that ever made sense to you...you might have money now, but you don' have love...you don't have warm arms wrapped around you and a gentle kiss to wake you up in the morning..
you mistreated her, made her feel like a dirt bag and now she's gone for good....she smiles whenever she sees you, but you know it's not the same...you can read the contempt on her lips, maybe hatred in her eyes..
But you know you are not even worth of being hated...she just passes you by, just like she passes a stranger, looks you straigh into your eyes and moving on.
She ..has found her way, a different path from yours. She is still young, and she still has so much to see....you used to call her yours once, but not because you had any feeling for her, but because you knew that that girl's little heart was stupid enough and beat for you. You knew how much she loved to make you smile and spoil you, you knew that she was there for you
But one day..she went away, and left you behind. And it's just now that you start wondering whether she might have been someone that you will regret...
she is happy, trully happy unlike you, unlike you that uses alcohol to drown his sorrow, and uses other women to fill the void that she left....she is so far that you can't touch her anymmore....she is so far and she is not looking back anymore...maybe just to say good bye for good